Hey!
My name is Violet Howes and I am a musician from Southern California. For the first 22 years of my life I grew up in constant sunshine and warmth until I chose to move to New England and began to feel a level of homesickness I had never before felt.
School wasn't the easiest for me growing up. I never really excelled at any subject in particular until I joined my middle school choir when I was eleven. Getting an A in a class for something I was naturally gifted with almost felt like a cheat, but I loved it. Along with my parents, I started getting praise and approval from my authoratative figures such as my choir teacher and even the principal of the school. Feeling extremely important, and a little popular, I decided to carry on with music and the lovely feelings that positive recognition gave me. I continued to pursue singing in choir classes in high school and college and that's what led me to going to Berklee College of Music. Attending that school was a humbling experience and I learned many skills within music and plenty outside of the subject. The feeling of being a “little fish in the middle of the ocean” was very strong then and still is now two years post grad. See, I was given opportunites when I was younger, therefore I never really had to seek them. Now being in the real world shows me that I have to fend for myself and my art, and it's difficult. Yet music is still the main character in my life, and I have given myself permission to explore different sounds that have in turn made me want to explore my own voice.
My relationship with pursuing music is a roller coaster of doubt and hope, but I will never give up on it. There are people in my corner and they keep me stable.